I find extreme comfort in step by step instructions, lists, to-do's, manuals. As much as I would like to say I am a free-thinker who can figure things out by myself, I don't like not knowing what is next or having a definite way of going about something. Thanks, DTS. You're messing with every comfort zone, every boundary I have set for myself, and every wall I have put up.
Although I sometimes wish it did, the heart doesn't change in an instant. It takes a series of events, thoughts, prayers, and victories. Specifically, forgiving. Our speaker last week brought up that the Westerner's mindset seems to think that we need to heal in order to forgive, when in reality, healing can't take place until the process of forgiveness starts. Being someone who likes to base most things off of my emotions, that's a really tough thing to take in. I've always thought that I would start forgiving people when I felt like it. I've been awakened to the fact that I probably won't ever "feel like it".
So Lord, I'm gonna need your help on this one.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
There are no windows in this basement. Sometimes I forget there's a world out there.
